October 4, 2004


  • Well, Bluesoid helped me put up my spider-webby background, I tried to remember everything he was doing, but..............oh well, another excuse to have him come over!


    I've been trying to decide if I chose cobwebs because they are EVERYWHERE right now, or because I've been trying to fight through some of the ones that have taken up residence in my mind.  I used to be so quick, annoyingly so, but now, it seems I have to take time and think through the big stuff.


    Is this just because I'm growing up? Becoming wiser?  Did my husbands sudden death accellerate my growth?  I know it made me slow down, look at all sides of things.  I am not quick to anger, I try to process the situation, think it through..........I do not want to wound the ones I love with harsh unnecessary words or actions.  I am less selfish, and when I try to concentrate on the "good" things that might have possibly come from his death, that is at the top of the list.


    I want to clear away these cobwebs, I want to retain in my mind the little hints that life gives me.  I want to clearly see how to deal with my family and my life situations.  Above all, I want to be compassionate, full of love.  If I need to deal with my childrens issues, I want to err to the "soft" side of my heart, and not be overly harsh.  I know you mothers know what I am meaning, there are times you have to dig in and fight WW3, but the little skirmishes?  I dont want to be in a constant state of distress and annoyance with them.  I want them to want to be around me........I need them in my life.  They are 18 and 19, going from catterpillar to butterfly.......I want to be there to share in the beauty that is their journey.


    Happy Monday to all of you.

Comments (7)

  • :stickdance:You always have such precise and clear photos here...and your attitude reflects your writing...
    I look foward to my visits here everyday! :peace:

  •   You wite vewy weww, my wuv. Wite on! :clap:

  •  :wave:

    I wish my head and heart were full of cobwebs so I would have an excuse not to use them.  :frown:

    The bottom picture is gorgeous!

  • Thanks Tricia! I esp love the trees reflecting up from the river!

  • Hey, how did you get so good at digital photography?  :wink:

  • Well, Tricia, I'm sure by the above post you can tell that Bluesoid took that photo.........however, he was using my digital camera, and that's why it turned out so nice,.........but we wont, of course, tell him that!   :eyeroll: :nanana:

  • That really is so true.  The need to slow down, take in whats around you and share the love so to speak.

    Something I didn't learn till my late 20's...is that we can pick and choose our battles.  And that often people in general make everything a battle when there is no need.  It makes things so much smoother when we let many of those little things slide.

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