October 6, 2004
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And this is the deck the first pic is taken from. I'm so glad the weather is getting cooler, so I can use the hot tub more. My sister in law will only get in the tub when its warm, and I love it when it's cool and even when its rainy! It's wonderful! It has a radio/CD player right in it, so I put in my Coldplay CD, turn on the funky lights, and soooooaaaaaaak!
I moved to this house after my husband died. I could see him, smell him, hear him in every corner and hallway of our old house, so I bought this one. It really helped me then, but now, I'm sometimes wistful when I drive past the old place. Now the memories of him aren't so horribly painful, they have become sweet. Sometimes I'm tempted to walk up and ask if I can come in for a moment, but I know it looks totally different now, and the "spirit" of the house is different, and deep down, I don't want to layer the new family's home over my own precious memories. So I stay away. And I know he likes this new home just fine.
I said yesterday that I was going to pull a couple of Angel cards regarding this new job..........I drew Raphael, Angel of Healing, and Fortunata, Angel of Prosperity!!!!!!!! Raphael means "God cures", does this mean this job might help me heal, or does it mean I need to heal more before I take a job? I'm not sure, so I asked him to send me clarity and love for my healing process. As for Fortunata, I asked her to help me see the truth, and focus on it, to align my mind and feelings to support my desires. This job is not about the money so much as will it bring me "abundance"... things like fulfillment, satisfaction, joy, a reason to put on makeup! LOL
Thank you all so much for your words of support!
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I would look past the bulldog slobber and spend some time out there. Nice! :smile:
Your place is lovely. I know what you mean about the house you shared with your husband. I feel that way about the house my grandparents lived in. I've gone by but I won't go inside again. I want to keep the memories in tact.
I'm glad the Angels cards gave you such positive answers. I'd have to say that you got a "Go for it" am I right?
Best of luck!
and the visuals as usual are astonishing...
when I read you I feel your soul in every word...
such brightness lights up my evenings !
for some reason we cannot close the rift that has drifted between us...
And my pain comes deeply from trying and reaching only to have my fingers extracted from my hands...
hmmm thanks for Seeing me...
and for always having a visual for me to rest my eyes upon and some wisdom to calm my anxiety!
:smile:Your pictures are great looks like you enjoy your home. Thanks for coming by come by again.
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Pick a card. Any card. You are strange but very lovable. May your demons leave you and your memories comfort you, :lip_kiss:
I'm happy you got to buy this beautiful home after the loss of your husband and glad some of the sadness has turned to sweetness.
If I had to imagine what I'd like for my own home, the kind of quaint, getaway feeling....these pictures would be perfect.
And maybe the mominlaw is nice now because you're a living tie to her son.
We lived with mine for a year so we could start again after a layoff etc. First time we'd even lived near her our whole relationship and boom, it was in her house. Stressfull to say the least, but she's nicer to me now, because her son lives nearby. When we moved far away before it was all "my fault" according to her.
Some mothers are weird about their sons.
These cards you menion sound very interesting, I've never heard of it from anyone else before.
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